2.27.2013

thinking about 39...

yesterday was my birthday... 39 years old... how in the world did that happen so quickly is what i would like to know... it seems like yesterday i was belting out "the sun will come out tomorrow" in the back yard while my mom was making sandwiches and kool-aid for myself and the neighborhood kids... now i'm the mom making the sandwiches and the kool-aid...
so... i've been thinking about this whole 39 thing... it's my last hoo-rah of a year before 40... the number doesn't bother me so much... it's where i'm at in regards to where i feel i should be in life... you see, i'm still not quite sure what i want to be when i grow up... 
i love my husband and my daughters... i love being a wife and a mom... those things i know for sure...

being a student on the other hand is getting rough...
take for example... i've been up since 4 am because i was studying for a make up test that i had to take this morning... my momentum with that whole thing is wavering... i'm pushing myself forward each day but i can't take the fact that i've been back in school for 3 years and i probably have a little over 4 left if i'm looking at things realistically...

it's hard... and what i usually do when things get hard is quit...

  i want this degree so that i can just say that i did it already... i know i need to do this for myself... so for now i'll keep plugging along...

however... i do feel that i need to inspire myself to venture more in the direction of where my creative heart is... making things has always been a big part of who i am... 
so... this year {between 39 and 40}... i'm going to step out of my comfort zone a little... i need some sort of plan so that i feel like i'm holding true to myself... like setting some goals in regards to my handmade things... i think that might be a good place to start... {kind of thinking out loud here :)}
so here's to my 39th year... and to finding my way towards what i really want to be when i grow up...

{these flowers have nothing to do with this post... they were just my fun project for the night...}


have a happy day~
angie

6 comments:

Cathy Trochelman said...

Happy Birthday, Angie! And good luck figuring this out....I guess my feeling is you should do what is life-giving. Whatever that may be. Have you ever considered opening an etsy shop? Your stuff is so cute!

Anonymous said...

I have no doubt in my mind that you can do this, hang in their and take it day by day, you know I love and support you in whatever you do,Mom

Anonymous said...

HAppy Birthday!
I Love your flowers. You do BEAUTIFUL work!
Lib

oopsiemaizie said...

cathy, thank you so much for the birthday wishes : ) and i appreciate the "do what is life giving" advice... i have always wanted to open an etsy shop, but just haven't had the courage to do it yet... thanks for the encouraging words!

oopsiemaizie said...

thanks mama!

oopsiemaizie said...

thanks for the birthday greeting and kind words, lib!!!