thinking about 39...

yesterday was my birthday... 39 years old... how in the world did that happen so quickly is what i would like to know... it seems like yesterday i was belting out "the sun will come out tomorrow" in the back yard while my mom was making sandwiches and kool-aid for myself and the neighborhood kids... now i'm the mom making the sandwiches and the kool-aid...

so... i've been thinking about this whole 39 thing... it's my last hoo-rah of a year before 40... the number doesn't bother me so much... it's where i'm at in regards to where i feel i should be in life... you see, i'm still not quite sure what i want to be when i grow up... 

i love my husband and my daughters... i love being a wife and a mom... those things i know for sure...

being a student on the other hand is getting rough...

take for example... i've been up since 4 am because i was studying for a make up test that i had to take this morning... my momentum with that whole thing is wavering... i'm pushing myself forward each day but i can't take the fact that i've been back in school for 3 years and i probably have a little over 4 left if i'm looking at things realistically...

it's hard... and what i usually do when things get hard is quit...

  i want this degree so that i can just say that i did it already... i know i need to do this for myself... so for now i'll keep plugging along...

however... i do feel that i need to inspire myself to venture more in the direction of where my creative heart is... making things has always been a big part of who i am... 

so... this year {between 39 and 40}... i'm going to step out of my comfort zone a little... i need some sort of plan so that i feel like i'm holding true to myself... like setting some goals in regards to my handmade things... i think that might be a good place to start... {kind of thinking out loud here :)}

so here's to my 39th year... and to finding my way towards what i really want to be when i grow up...

{these flowers have nothing to do with this post... they were just my fun project for the night...}

have a happy day~

angie